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Respite
01:56
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I’m feeling different than before.
In the past I’ve wanted more.
Now all time brings is apathy.
Lately, I can never breathe.
Whys my chest so damn heavy?
I guess this is growing up.
Sure feels like sticking in the mud.
Of all the things I’ve asked myself,
Why persist what feels like hell?
Why give up against the swell?
Though you all take just what you want.
My hollow bodies here to haunt
Closed eyes with vivid memories.
I am lost within my dreams.
I am tearing at the seams.
I feel different and it hurts.
I guess I found what I deserve.
Though cynicism never wins.
I’ve found nothing better than,
Being cold against the wind.
A cold heart will never freeze,
No discomfort I am free to embrace simple apathy,
Let the pain just fall beneath
Before it devours me.
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Empathy
03:05
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What does it mean
To feel constantly unsafe?
Always present, on the edge,
When does it end?
When does it end?
Though moments bitter, I resent.
There's nothing more fucked than what's going on inside your head.
I am tired of defense.
Of you sitting on the fence.
Nothing's changed when nothing's said.
Is this really what you meant?
But he got just what he wanted.
took it all and now I'm haunted
By the memory - breathing heavy over me.
Can't get it off my mind,
It feels like a waste of time.
To wait to see you feel the weight of empathy
Can't get it off my mind,
It feels like a waste of time.
To wait to see you feel the weight of empathy
And how you consumed me.
Cause you tried everything you could on me.
And though you never asked, I could barely breathe.
Another moment wasted, I am crying in the basement,
And you linger at the bottom with my fear.
Can't get it off my mind,
It feels like a waste of time.
To wait to see you feel the weight of empathy
And how you consumed me.
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3. |
Concrete
02:44
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condemned to the toxicity.
If I broke you’d find another means.
It wasn’t me you felt.
sitting in your guilt.
I think we’re all dishonest at first.
You didn’t ask, you took.
Now I’m sitting shook.
Of all the things I’ve overlooked,
They’re staring back at me,
I’m drowning in your greed
You devoured me.
I think we’re all dishonest first.
Until you get what you deserve.
Till you’ve spilled out to the curb,
All the pieces of your worth.
You didn’t ask, you took.
Now I’m sitting shook.
Of all the things I’ve overlooked,
They’re staring back at me,
I’m drowning in your greed
You devoured me.
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4. |
Masculinity is a Prison
01:39
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25 feels a lot like 24,
still the pain but there is something more,
It never, It never settles right.
When you live between nightmares, do you still call it life?
Though I wish you asked twice,
Though I wish you asked twice.
Though I wish you asked twice.
Hating you makes everything a little bit alright.
I’m dead inside. I’m healing, right?
Hating you makes everything a little bit alright.
Growing up always feels like wasting time
Thought you’d stay more than a while
(I’m better off for this, your absence will never be remiss
-There is nothing left
I’m stuck in my own head.
I’m always grasping threads,
But now there’s nothing left.-
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5. |
Apathy
01:33
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I’m feeling drained a little bit,
And out of sorts, apathetic.
The moments you never deserve,
always stay glued,
Inside your head until they tear away at you.
It all hurts the same.
Why is it so hard to be tough?
And if it all hurts the same,
When will I have had enough?
Enough is enough.
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6. |
Fester
02:31
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I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way.
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut.
everything pours straight from my gut.
It doesn’t matter anyway,
nothing that I could say,
To make this hurt go away.
So I’d rather sit in pain.
Fester the sadness that I’m in.
Up until I wear too thin,
finally let you in.
Oh, I want to let you in.
I’d rather keep it to myself,
Brush it off, help it find a shelf,
cause all these memories,
Can’t be the death of me.
I don’t like drinking to forget.
But I don’t like the pain I’m in.
And if it hurts worse every day,
Can we ever feel ok?
It doesn’t matter anyway,
nothing that I could say,
To make this hurt go away.
So I’d rather sit in pain.
Fester the sadness that I’m in.
Up until I wear too thin,
finally let you in.
Oh, I want to let you in.
-This is where the fear begins,
I’m always scared in my own skin.
I’m never telling anyone.
The way I felt when you were done.-
I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way.
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut.
everything pours straight from my gut.
It doesn’t matter anyway,
nothing that I could say,
To make this hurt go away.
So I’d rather sit in pain.
Fester the sadness that I’m in.
Up until I wear too thin,
finally let you in.
Oh, I want to let you in.
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7. |
Temperance
03:19
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Awake, I relive each moment,
This room holds my discontent.
You over me,
everything was empty,
I held my breath, you consumed me.
I always begged for your temperance.
You set soil in each precious moment.
I lay silently with my own shame.
I only wanted your refrain.
How did it come to this?
How do we grow from it?
The steps forward diminishing.
And when we sit with everything,
we wilt away, we wilt away.
Where is my home in this decay?
I always begged for your temperance.
You set soil in each precious moment.
I lay silently with my own shame.
I always begged for your temperance.
You set soil in each precious moment.
I lay silently with my own shame.
I only wanted your refrain.
I know you know it too.
Cause they hunger and hurt more than you.
I know you know it too.
Shivering, the narcissist consumes.
I always begged for your temperance.
You set soil in each precious moment.
I lay silently with my own shame.
I only wanted your refrain.
not for you to stay.
I only wanted your refrain.
To ever feel safe.
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8. |
Push
05:15
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Self harms a sport for one,
Without the strength to overcome,
Did you think this would be fun?
I beg to breathe,
but I can't stop suffocating,
Does anything good come easy?
moments between,
I am tearing at the seams,
Are you too always haunted by your dreams?
Did you think this would be fun?
Can you even call it a chest with this many holes?
Why do I have to keep reminding myself I am whole?
Now you see what I’ve become.
Can’t you see I’ve had enough?
Did you think this would be fun?
Self harms a sport for one,
Without the strength to overcome.
Did you think this would be fun?
moments between,
I am tearing at the seams,
Are you too always haunted by your dreams?
Did you think this would be fun? (x2)
Now you see what I’ve become.
Can’t you see I’ve had enough?
Did you think this would be fun?
Did you think this would be fun? (X2)
Now you see what I’ve become.
Can’t you see I’ve had enough.
Did you think this would be fun?
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9. |
Respire
02:27
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How come this never goes my way
You are what I wish I lived without
You filled me with doubt
You are the labor I allowed
I’m passing now,
But you never heard a sound.
How come this never goes my way
I find in dreams that my body’s rot.
to reflect all this decay.
Still tethered to these thoughts,
And to this pain, and the ways you made me stay.
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Pity Party Oakland, California
emo pop-punk from Oakland, CA
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